Chronic

I think this is the first doctors appointment I'm excited about
I finally get to rip these stupid tonsils out and end the chronic pain
But to me it's not chronic
I stopped noticing how much it hurt to swallow
Because it hurts a whole lot more to watch my friends go through things I don't know how to help them with
It hurts more to fall in unreciprocated love
It hurts more to see my best friend cry
It hurts

Illness is nothing compared to heartbreak
And I would take tonsillitis over and over again if it meant I could end everyone else's pain

Your pain has always cut me deeper than my own
These tears were never for me

Happy Valley

I didn't show up to school the next day

I told my mom I was sick

But I think we're all sick with something

Everyone was grieving and I was at home in yoga pants watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians

For some reason their stupid dramatic lives helped me escape for a few hours and all I felt was fake

Fake

Fake

Fake

And that felt better than facing the halls of students trying not to cry

Because we're all sick with something

Someone, please find a cure

There are a bunch of suggested remedies out there, but we've yet to find one that's a cure-all

We need a cure-all

Because I don't think happy valley can handle so much sadness

They'll have to rename it

Someone, please find a cure